Recently I wrote Groundhog Day then Retrograde Going Backwards to go Forward because I was sensing major shifts going on within and around me. Through doing a little research, the information pointed out that this would come to an end around April 14th 2012.
Little did I know at the time what information would be made available to me, how it might come or what the outcomes might be…
Since writing those pieces I undertook a personal journey of discovery using the spirit plant Ayahuasca, which has allowed me a very deep insight into a variety of topics – not least of which is how we as humans have forgotten so much!
I’ve been known to cut through the crap in most situations but even I’m surprised at the level of comprehension that’s been developing; it’s like I can see straight through to the root of an issue almost immediately – the blinkers are well and truly off.
I’ve absolutely no doubt that the Aya has provided me with ‘answers’ to my own issues, but it’s also given me the trust in myself to pursue what I believe to be ‘true’… and that is about caring for people before we start counting the costs of lives torn apart by unnecessary wars, poverty and famine.
Since a young child, war has not only horrified but puzzled me – the incongruence of governments being the most niggling of questions; why would people who say they care about situations in Africa be trading their blood diamonds? How can knocking down cities and a country’s infrastructure improve the welfare of those under extreme regimes, be helpful?
This wasn’t a sudden epiphany – it’s been many years of observations and study which have led me to oppose circles of cash being generated for the same circles of people who manoeuvre and maintain the war machine to suit their own ends… What the ayahuasca experience enabled me to do was clearly see one particular problem;
Those who say they’re fixing things are actually those who are creating the problem.
And they now know it. Many people in power here in the UK and further afield are running scared; fear grips them as they know the game’s a bogey. Desperate times bringing desperation in many cases. Unfortunately, this usually leads to even more drastic measures to limit our freedom as shown in Al Jazeera’s article on “The UK government’s war on internet freedom“, amongst others.
If you observe things closely you’ll soon see how middle-men and charlatans in all areas of life, have gotten away with their ‘spin’. They too are now afraid of what’s to come – even if their own conscience doesn’t support their actions, they know the time is coming when they’ll be ‘outed’ – they’ve been creaming off the system for too long and even it won’t protect or support them any longer.
They have become liabilities in themselves.
Similarly as the cuts bite into most of the world’s population in one way or another, many are asking the same questions – this time refusing to accept lame excuses for the capitalists’ existence where profit is given priority over people.
So if that’s at the top of the tree – is there hope for us at the bottom?
Yes! It’s not all negative – some who’ve re-visited their past actions have mended their ways – we see this as police, war veterans and serving marine’s turn their back on their force, no longer willing to be a part of this problem. Instead, those who are able, take up the challenge to repay their conscience with ‘good’ work, helping others sometimes in more dire circumstances than themselves.
Whistleblowers have ensured there is much more transparency in the workings of big business – and the exploitation of indigenous people across the globe to provide us greedy westerners with luxury and waste; costing lives and untold distress to those just trying to survive.
Being forever an optimist I also truly believe that we have ample technology and creativity to not only survive but thrive; and there are a very many people who are pooling resources, working together to help others who are less fortunate.
My journey with ayahuasca clarified my thinking and re-inforced my belief that we are all One – allowing me to trust in the process of whatever is unfolding; knowing that I as only one, have limited ability… but sit on the edge of huge potential – if we were to link hands, across our divides we can be the peace we wish to see in this world.
Every minute of every day we’re presented with opportunities to change something – our way of thinking or methods in the ways we treat other living things. Every day we can enrich the life of another; enriching our own at the same time – even if this is only by taking a moment to reduce someone’s isolation or despair.
We’re leaving this cycle to enter another – one of tumult and turmoil for sure, but also one where there is faith in the inherent goodness of humankind – I’m certain it will prevail, taking us into a new age of care and compassion.
You’ve either got to get on this rollercoaster – or you don’t.
What’s become clear to me is that choice is our prime challenge; choosing to do or not do – choosing to believe or not believe in something or someone and finally, choosing to be yourself or your issues.
To be authentic and sincere we’re faced with dealing with our ‘self’; the dominant bits of us we’re not that keen on but don’t know how to change – or if we even want to.
These are the bits we deny to friends and family and find hard to accept ourself, knowing they bring us no comfort and if anything, alienate us from other people
. Now is the time to confront them – are they true? Are they even real?
To make ourselves whole we must choose a way of being that sits well with us, positively enhancing our lives; no compromise, no guilt and no shame in our way of thinking or actions. Be honest. Change those parts of you that no longer serve you in the most positive ways.
But remember, not everyone thinks or acts the way you do. Respect and accept their ways if it’s appropriate, or distance yourself from the influence if it’s not. You have no need or desire to become embroiled in another’s ego-driven dramas.
Walk away with your head held high.
It’s your choice if you decide to stay, listening to the talk but remember, until there’s a walk accompanying it, it’s still just talk.
Learn to trust your intuition – if it doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t.
There isn’t a day goes by that I’m not reminded of my Aya learnings and I fully expect that to go on… and on.
And, out of all of this – the ayahuasca residues and daily living, one thing for me has become certain; if you’re not moving, shifting, changing, evolving or open to change, you’ll be left behind.
There is no room for passengers or burdens; first work on your self, lighten your load and the road won’t seem so long…